Current Residence: Toledo, OH|
Favourite genre of music: classical guitar
I love art.
I think I have always been drawn to art. My parents have said that I was drawing ever since I could hold a pencil. I also have been writing ever since I learned how.
I LOVE art of all types and styles. As a child I was drawn to animation and comics. I grew up in the comic bubble of the 90s, when everything was new and extreme. Artist I admired at this time were Jim Lee, Marc Silvestri, Rob Liefeld, and Erik Larson. I was an Image guy. But as I got older, I was introduced to more classical artists by my High School art teacher. Artists like Leonardo da vinci, and Jacques-Louis David. As a matter of fact I did a drawing of Oath of the Horatii by Louis David. I also started to get into fantasy artists at this time, people like Brom, Frank Frazetta, Clyde Caldwell and Boris Vallejo. I had dreams of being a fantasy artist.
After graduating High School my first attempt at college was not art related but Computer related. It was not till I went to College the second time, when I went for a Commercial Art degree. It was here I was opened up to a whole new world of art and concepts. I can not even name all the artist and creative people I learned about. It would take to long. That being said there is not one particular art form I like. I'm not just into comic artist and cartoons anymore.
I love art so much that I would be making it 24/7 if I could somehow provide for my family doing it. Someday I would like my skills to be good enough to maybe do this. I may not be the best artist in the world, but I have strived to be the best artist I can be. In the past i have had a stifling fear of not being perfect. I have let this fear of perfection and my ideas of what perfect art is stop me from producing. It has caused me to have many moments of just giving up. I would start one project only to be discouraged by it not turning out the perfect version in my head. Then I would put the project on halt. This caused me to get nothing done, or very little. When I was in school, I had to produce in order to past classes, I had something to hold me to the fire so to speak. The result would be me finishing it wither I liked the end result or not. Since school has ended, I have let my quest for perfection, lack of confidence and fear of failure stop me. I am my own worst enemy.
I could never give up on art entirely though. It always drew me back in. Like a sailor being drawn to the sirens of the sea, I would return to art. Once she had me in her grasp I would start something new. Then fear of not being good enough would set in and I would put it on hold. This pattern was in all forms of art, from drawing, to writing, to music.
Recently while listening to other artist, and reading articles I came to a revelation. Without.Without realizing it I feared failure so much, that I didn't do anything, didn't get anything done. This in itself was failure. Every time I start and stop something I failed. Failure is not necessarily doing something perfect. Failure is not doing anything at all. The last couple years I have allowed these fears to hinder me in so many areas. I have also allowed the aspect of not making a good income on these projects to hinder me as well.
This is my declaration to no longer let these fears get in the way. NO MORE! I will work harder and ignore the voices that tell me I will never be good, and I will always be a failure. I will no longer give them power over me. Instead I will work on my skills while producing. In attempt to hold my feet to the flames, I'm going to now start using my Facebook page, deviant art page, and tumbler to post art. I'm kinda sick of all the horrible news I see on a constant so In hopes of seeing something better out there, I will try and start sharing my ideas and concepts. My goal will be to post at least one thing art related a day. So to all my Facebook friends out there, if you would keep me accountable to this, I would appreciate encouragement in this area. If I have not posted to my page then ask me why. Anyhow I will now end this post and declaration. Thank you for your time and support.
Proverbs 18:16 A man's gift maketh room for him, and bringeth him before great men.